A Thousand Unforgiven Sins

I felt like my head was hollow with a heavy metal sphere rolling around inside it. Hitting really hard against the walls every now and then.
The blood circulating in my body was at a significantly higher temperature until I realized something. That's when it turned cold. It slowly began to sink in that soon I won't be able to remember exactly what you smell like. I still manage to surprise myself when randomly I catch a whiff of you, out of nowhere, out of thin air. Unexpectedly, unplanned. That's when I feel so much closer and even though my heart usually beats at twice its usual speed at these moments, I still feel exceptionally calm. How will I feel exceptionally calm now?

I could go on.
Something inside my gut is telling me to stop. Writing.